Grief comes with a kaleidoscope of emotions – often shifting minute-by-minute through us. The moments which I have felt the most unbearable to me are often times when I cannot seem to express those emotions outwardly, and they begin to build up. I start to feel alone and isolated and overwhelmed. The above pages are some of the ways that I have learned how to cope. Some of them come from as far back as nine years old, when my mother died of cancer… and others are very recently adopted in the aftermath of losing the love of my life. My hope is that in sharing some of how I am learning to cope and heal my shattered self, that it may also help someone else to have new tools at hand on their own journey.
Below are also some links to books, documentaries and articles that I have found very helpful on this difficult journey:
A Grief Observed, by C.S. Lewis – a short but significant read for me, Lewis shares some of his journal entries of the time after his wife died. I have read it several times and uncover new aspects that I resonate with each time.
This I Know: Notes on Unraveling the Heart, by Susannah Conway – I read this within the first year of loving my love, and it felt like hearing my future self writing to me. Photographer Conway shares her story alone with how photography helped her to begin to see again and help others do the same.
The Creative Space: Art and Well Being in the Shadow of Trauma, Grief and Loss, by Anne Riggs – This graduate thesis focuses on trauma more specifically from sexual abuse, but I think that it gives a wonderful example of the power of creativity for anyone enduring any kind of trauma.
More to come soon!